The first book in the completed Scars We Carry series.
A raw, gritty emotionally dark romance about grief, survival, and learning how to live again when the person you love doesn't come home.
❤️ Widow × husband's best friend
🚑 Paramedic heroine
🖤 He stayed when everyone else walked away
🔥 Dark, messy, emotionally heavy romance
📚 Completed series of interconnected stanalones
About Only If I Stay
Lana has spent years surviving. A widow, a paramedic, and a single mom raising two boys who are just as broken by loss as she is. Her life runs on autopilot—48-hour shifts, unfinished laundry, and the haunting memories of the man she couldn’t save.
Lucas was her husband’s best friend. He’s the man who stayed when Lana pushed everyone away. And now, he’s the one making her feel something other than numb.
When tragedy strikes again, Lana is forced to confront the truth: survival isn’t the same as healing. And maybe, just maybe, she doesn’t have to do it alone this time.
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These are dark romances that stay with you long after you’ve read the last word. They take you on a wild emotional journey but are so worth reading and sharing. I sat speechless when I finished them.
-Casey The Outsiders Bookshelf
Please Read Before Purchasing
This novel contains themes of:
- Line-of-duty death (LODD)
- Pediatric emergency medical calls
- PTSD & trauma
- Grief, widowhood, and emotional recovery
- Sexual intimacy and mental health coping mechanisms
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